I'm a fan (and you should be too) because...

I am his biggest fan, and in my younger years, he touched me. Yes, Michael Jackson touched me when I was still a little girl.

Seriously, whenever I felt blue, I would sing “SMILE” under my breath and everything would be fine. Michael was always there for me. I grew up with his music, dance, songs, videos and I always wanted to dance like him.. When I was 12 years old I tried to do my best to learn how to dance like him by watching his videos but couldn’t until I saw him in my dream where he hold my hand, took me to the dance floor in his house and taught me how to dance…. You cannot imagine how I woke up like crazy around 6 morning,, played his song “Billie Jean” and started dancing… I was like “OH MY GOD”.. I can dance now and started crying with joyful tears… I went to my dad’s room and shouted like crazy “DAD, I can dance like Michael” and showed him my performance… My family was in shock…

I started showing all my friends how I can dance and sing and later on started Performing for on several occasion. My childhood nickname is Michael Jackson. You can only see Michael on the wall of my room… Whoever knows Talar … means knows Michael Jackson for sure. I still remember how I was collecting money to buy his pics, videos, posters, CDs... and always used to print his pics on my t-shirts and wear them to show people how much I love him..

I was in Love with him…He showed me a way of being in the world. He taught me 5 things: Kindness, Love, Possibility, Smile, Dance. I never got the chance to meet him, to hug him, or tell him just how much he has influenced my life, yet I feel like I knew him.

I remember saying when I was a child that the day Michael was no longer with us, that day would hurt like no other, but never did imagine that this day would come so soon. Words can not describe how I feel. A part of me has died. I have gone into a deep depression. I know a lot of people love him, but does anyone feel like I do (to this extreme)? I sit in the dark listening to his music. His angelic voice makes me cry. He's gone too soon and I can't deal with it. Michael, why?

I am speechless …….