This makes me so sad everytime I read this.

I wish I could have been the love of his life he wouldn't be lonely with me around. He'd be too busy being pampered and spoiled and loved.

Very nice piece, 5809. Michael was lonely, and his position in life didn't make things any easier for him. He was never really given the chance to move from loneliness to solitude; which is sad. I know when I was younger, I would feel lonely many times. Now, as I've grown older, I cherish my solitude and very rarely ever feel lonely. Perhaps there were times when Michael did not feel like seeing himself; when your alone and feeling lonely, this seems to be where the mind wanders. I don't know. I think perhaps, too, part of Michael's loneliness was his sense of belonging to the world. Again, when I was younger, I felt so much love for the world, there were times I thought my heart would break. Yet, the real challenge and the real fulfillment and joy come from loving, and being loved by, one special person. I don't think Michael ever really experienced this. And this is what really twists my heart for him. The love of your children is very special; yet, to be able to share your life with one special person who is your partner can give one a sense of completion....even when there are rough patches because then there's the joy of having gotten through them and the fact you're still together.

I feel I can understand Michael's feeling of loneliness now more than ever. When he passed away I felt more lonely than ever before and that feeling inside remains to this day. None of my family or friends love or feel about Michael the way I do and it is impossible for them to understand what I am going through. Sometimes when I am having a bad day I just want someone to talk to, someone to tell me it will be alright. They can't do that if they can't sympathize or understand the situation and that just makes me feel lonelier still.
The times I feel least lonely now are when I am on websites such as these where I can talk with people who are going through exactly the same emotions as me. I sit in my room alone in the dark talking to the people who love Michael the most and I feel like part of the 'team' again.
It's weird to think that I live with 6 other people but I feel less lonely talking to people I have never and probably will never meet over the internet, alone in my room.
I sometimes wonder if Michael ever ventured on to the internet perhaps pretending to be someone else. It seems like the only way he could have had a normal conversation because he could be whoever he wanted to be and the person talking to him had no idea who he really was. I think something like that might have subsided the pang of loneliness for a short time. But as we all know, as much as we love coming on here, talking to fans and sharing our feelings it is not the same as having those same conversations with someone face to face.

he would walk around hoping to bump into some stranger on the street so he'd have someone to talk to.(from his book,moonwalk)love you mj

I think Michael felt so lonely because he had no idea who he could trust: was a new person in his life a potential friend? just interested in his fame and/or money? a future backstabber? .... he was surrounded by adoring fans, but they gave him attention, not real love ... attention and fame must be wonderful to experience, but they are no substitute for the love one can find in a life partner...hence, although Michael was often surrounded by people he was still very lonely - in fact, he may have felt even more lonely when surrounded by many people...

Hi 5809 and MichaelJacksonL, Thanks for discussing this topic. I also think loneliness is part of the human condition, to a certain extent, and felt comforted to read your responses to know that I am not alone.

At least part of the condition we humans find ourselves in now. I read we originally traveled in herds and this is one reason people attend church or whatever. This gives that feeling of belonging to the herd. I wonder if joiners are as lonely as non joiners. So maybe the normal human condition is social and by being loners or introverts be isolate ourselves and feel lonlier than others.

But at least we loners can go out in to crowds occasionally for the social fix. MJ couldn't do this. He did have his own herd, his bodyruards and employees. You would have thought that would have helped, at least until all the negative reports in the media. Then he couldn't trust them, I suppose. Also, to read negative publicity about oneself would make you feel no one liked you. However, It is wonderful he had his children. They must have helped with his loneliness.

Sometimes I wonder how lonely he could have been since he seemed to have so many friends. Maybe he liked loneliness to a certain extent since he apparently wanted to live alone without a significant other.