OMG...I was just called a Freak...AHHHHHH
I am really sick and tired of people telling me how to feel, or that I cannot possibly feel the way I do. Some of you know what I am saying, you get the same babble by your friends and family as I get. Well, this evening...the battle lines have been drawn and I have had enough.
Everyday on my facebook, in my status, I pick one of Michael's songs and put the lyrics...it is just a random pick, no rhyme or reason for the song I choose...anyway, I have been getting slack from some of my family members, well one in particular...she wants me to still put lyrics, but from a different artist. I told her NO...not today, not tomorrow, not ever...it is what it is...Michael's lyrics only. She rambled on for awhile and in true smart a%% fashion, because I was really getting pissy, I said, "well, today's song lyrics are from We Are The World", you should be happy, other artists sang on that song with him...her response...."You're such a Freak"....AAHHHHH. I hung up...
You know why they don't get it...because they weren't chosen to get it. Plain and simple...Earlier today, this morning actually, I was standing outside, needed a break from work, had read some of the posts this morning and went outside to talk to Michael, I find comfort in that... Anyways..while I was out there thinking, a thought came to my mind..kind of in a whisper...That Michael has chosen Special Ones to carry on his message of love and heal the world. That is why we feel the pain, have the highs and lows and have the compassion and caring ability to support each other. He has hand picked us. All of us in this forum, he and God have brought us together for a reason. I felt an immediate peace in that moment. Does this make sense to anyone else...could this be it??? I have to believe it is. I immediately thanked God and Michael for choosing me and everyone in this forum. I have found so much comfort here and I have tried my best to comfort those in need here too.
Anyway...back to the "Freak" thing. I can endure it, as mad as it made me...I can handle whatever they want to dish out. It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt and I won't cry...but I am not going to give them the satisfaction of seeing me cry. I am tired of trying to justify myself and my feelings to anyone who doesn't understand...or better yet, who wasn't chosen to endure this. I can do it, I can do it for Michael and I will keep his love safe in my heart and help carry out his message of Heal the World, and love each other.
Much love to all and Michael!