I am 47yrs old and rediscovered the joy of MJ immediately after hearing of his death. It was a shock, as it was to everyone else. He was only 3 yrs older than me. I loved MJ especially back in the late 70's and early 80's, but marriage and children put him and all music on the backburner, sadly. His music has always had the power to move me, to inspire me, to give me happiness, love, joy, hope and allowed me to feel as though he understood me and whatever I was enduring at the time - a connection between us. His songs also allowed me to get a glimpse of the person behind his songs. Yes, I do love him, and yes I will miss him and yes it has only been the past few days when I have not cried whilst listening to his songs. I have been obsessviely buying all his CDs and whatever DVDs I could find, and soon I will be seeing his movie. I have also pre-ordered his This Is It CD and really look forward to it. Any new songs released in the future shall also be eagerly awaited - and appreciated. Yes, Michael was deeply talented, inspirational, loving, gentle, trusting, forgiving, kind and every other positive adjective known to man can be used to describe him. His music is inspiring too, and many are uplifting. His songs will continue and he will be remembered by his fans, and he will not be forgotten. The media crucified him during his difficult times, but he endured and survived, moved on with his life and was stronger as a result. I couldn't have withstood what he went through and so I admire him immensely for the strength of character he possessed. At least now he can no longer be hurt by anyone. To his family and especially his children - he will always be by their sides and they should never forget this and take comfort from this, as he loved his children dearly.

It has been four months today since he died, and I think I have come to terms with it as the pain is slowly easing. The depth to which his death has affected me has really astounded me, as even though I followed his career and life, until now I would not have considered myself a deep fan, but a fan nonetheless. I am very glad to have found this website as since that bleak day I have spent hours pouring over the photos and news snippets as they are added here. I could continue on, but will not as I feel I would only be repeating what other members have already shared in their own blogs.

May you rest in peace Michael, safe, and always deeply loved forever. XXX