Up one Day down the Next
One day i seem to be able to give positive posts to people in pain. I think that i have finally gotten over this pain that makes no sense to me. A pain over someones death that i did not know, but was in my life my entire life. Michaels songs i listened to every single night as a child and as an adult also, Michael has been a light in a dark place when i was a child that does mean something to me more than anyone could ever know. Then the next day im back in deep pain again. The words that have been said to me on this forum have helped and i would like to think that i am not as bad as when i first came here. It depends on the day though. I have been noticing things on this forum and it makes me sad. People defending Michaels name still. I dont see why people that hate him would just come here to stir the pot to the people that loved him. I will never understand it, no matter how hard i wrack my brain. i also noticed. Those posts that are of drama and fighting are the ones that get so much attention. Just as Michaels life, the negativity that came about his life is what got alot of attention and Michael had to spend alot of his time defending that negativity and lies. I would love to know why we are like this in this life. Why cant love prevail!!!! What would happen if none of the negativity are paid any attention too. What if we all just silently knew the truth and found no reason to give the person that is trying to stir us up zero attention. Wouldnt that make them go away faster????? This one has been picking my brain also. But no matter how much i say on this one it seems like it isnt going to happen. It is so very sad to me. I wish we were different. I wish we truly were able to live as we were meant to live. I do know that some where along the line in this life we have changed. Maybe it is our deep pain that has caused us to stop accepting others and give them encouragement to become better people, maybe also our fear of not making it. Michael always said that he was who he was in spite of what he lived and that is what made him a better person. Why cant we? i hope i live to see the day that love is stronger than hate. I dont see it so much today out there. not even with our children. They are bullied on a regular basis and it is becoming a serious and dangerous problem. These are the things that have been occupying my mind today, thought i would share it with you, hope you dont mind and i hope you dont take offense truly isnt my intention. just my own thoughts.