I Need Help -- I'm Glad This Site Is Here

I have read this, and all the comments. And I am feeling the same way, nobody around that understands me, the same grieve, thinking of him fist and last thought in morning and evening, and always during all day, all the days that passed since June 25. And it is almose one year. I really miss him so much, and I even started only to be a fan after June 25. I really don't know what happened to me that day. My whole life changed completely. And I do regret that I missed this most wonderful , compassionate, giving person in the world. We are not alone. There are many like us. L.O.V.E.

Hey Linda! Please don't feel like you are nuts for missing Michael. You're soooo not alone! My family all thinks that I'm crazy. I cry almost every other day. Sometimes in secrecy. Sometimes my family catches me. I always tell myself to get over it. That he's gone. And there's nothing I can do about it. But that doesn't keep me from missing him so much. From missing his voice. From hearing his laugh. Seeing him smile. He did a lot of things for me. I never really realized it till his passing. I felt like a part of my childhood had died when he was gone. He was the reason why I sang around the house or danced around the house. I wanted to be him. He was my idol. He also made me chose stick close to music and to never let it go. And I'm proud to say I have a degree in vocal music partly because of his powerful influence he had on me. Right now, his music is getting me through a tough time as I search for employment. He's always reminding me to keep the faith and that I am not alone. And it just hurts me sometimes when he's not actually here. I wanted to tell him so many things. But the one thing I never got to tell him was that I loved him. The other thing I wanted to to tell him most was that I am here for you. Like you, my heart is broken. So, please!!!!!!!!! Don't feel like you are being silly for crying over someone you didn't know! But then again, perhaps we did know him. And that's why we are empty. But it's ok. You can cry. You're allowed. After all, this is still rather new. And if you ever need to talk to someone about it, you can always message me! I'll get back to you as soon as I can. Keep smiling, even though your heart is aching. You'll find that life is still worthwhile, if you just smile!

i feel the exact same way...how is that I can miss someone that I never even met so much my heart hurts...i wake up thinking about him and go to sleep thinking of him...i wish this were all just a bad dream i even wish that it was all made up for him to get out of those concerts...I wish all the world could really see him for who he was...I watched the video that was released this week of him singing with his kids cleaning up the puzzle the song that he sings has such a beautiful melody and for days i was dying to find out what it was i kept googling it and i finally found that that it's one of his own songs and I got so excited cuz I felt like I have him here with me..at first when i saw the video i thought he was singing someone elses song so when i found out it was one of his own i couldn't believe it..its called the lost children..and his own children were singing it with him..it just shows you the type of people those children would be if they were to be fully raised by michael for atleast another few more years...I hope to God that his children make him proud...